Wednesday, October 11, 2017

Dream 3

Yes, they are cathartic.

I dreamed, like the last one, that it was the end of the year and the principal was meeting with me to tell me what my schedule would be.

He told me he had hired the long term sub I have been working with this year and, since it has gone so well, I would be co-teaching with her.

Sunday, October 1, 2017

Another dream

I dreamed it was the end of the year. I had filled out my letter of intent (to stay) and the principal called me in to say he wasn't going to renew my contract.

i told him the decision about whether or not I stayed was not up to him. And that, after the year we had just finished (this year), if he didn't renew it, I would be going to the district and talking to someone there because THEY KNOW the year I have had.

It has been interesting.

Sometime, I will talk about it. Just not now.

Sunday, September 24, 2017

Dream

This has not been a good year. I am over stressed, in large part because I cannot let things go that I probably should (easier said than done), and in part because the administration and students will not recognize the position I have been put in. I will survive this year. It will all get done. Beyond that, I don't know.

So I had a dream last night, just before I woke up.

I am in an elementary classroom – looks like kindergarten or 1st grade but the kids look to be about 9 or 10. I know I am not certified in early childhood and almost say something about that several times in the dream but know it won’t help.

I have just been put in this room and want it, even though I know my limitations.

It starts with there is an issue, the reason I have been brought in. A child, a boy, has been threatening to hurt the children and the children were removed to another place while we deal with the child (I say we but I am the only school employee there). Eventually he is gone and the children return and I am doing math. Then the boy comes back and I am trying to surreptitiously get the other children to leave the room, go to the office and let them know what is happening. They leave the room, but don’t go to the office or come back in or go in the closet where there are all kinds of toys so they can play.

Eventually the kids leave, the boy is handled, and then the room is filled with parents (mothers) who are all angry, want me fired, say I am not handling it well, their kids are in danger, etc. I cannot get them to listen to me about what I can do for their children, that the boy has been removed and is no longer a threat – they just keep getting louder and louder.

At some point I go into a little cubby area and call school secretary to tell her I need to talk with the principal because I need to know what I can tell the parents. She puts me on hold and I end up hanging up on the hold to deal with the parents without any advice or help.

Toward the end I go into a closet that connects my room to another. It is filled with toys and the kids want to play with it. A janitor brings in a big box which is some kind of play kitchen set up and the kids are now not leaving to do anything constructive.

Then I woke up.

The boy is the teacher who was in the room before. He was never a threat to the kids and is not in the room now, but his presence is still there.

The children and the mothers are the students in the class, sometimes young, sometimes “adults” but never really acting like adults.

The room is my perception of the level of math I am trying to teach.

Saturday, August 12, 2017

It just gets old

I teach special ed.

I am content certified - meaning I have the same skillset as general ed teachers - but I also have special ed certification.

No, I am not more patient.

Yes, Other Teacher gets kudos for teaching three levels of the same course (same course, varying speeds as the kids are general ed, bright, and STEM).

No, I do not get credit for co-teaching in two different math courses while adapting the curriculum for three other math courses to meet the ieps of the kids I teach.

The good news, I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. It may be closer than I have previously said.

Sunday, August 6, 2017

It is odd to find that the administration really doesn't care about the students learning anything.

For 6 years I have been assigned a class that is equal parts Juniors and Seniors and have been expected to teach them their respective math classes: Algebra 2 and a basic, easy math for seniors.

This year they asked me to teach a class of geometry - with the required state test - and teach one of those students both geometry and algebra 2 - while I teach the rest of the class geometry.

If you don't care about the kids actually learning math and only want them to pass, I guess it makes sense.

Monday, July 31, 2017

Looking for a magic bandaid - and I am looking for a book.

I am looking for a book - that must exist but I don;t know how to search for it, so I am looking for suggestions as I look.

We all know people (usually women - and that is what I will use for this) who look for a relationship that will make everything all better, the Magic Bandaid. It may be a guy or it it may be a child. This relationship will be perfect and the receiver (the woman) will have a better life because of it.

The classic one that comes to mind is Ashley Wilkes. I believe Scarlett, when she finally realizes she doesn't want the Magic Bandaid, says that she made up a suit of clothes and hung it on the first guy to come along.

Anyone have any suggestions?

I have looked up Ashely Wilkes Syndrome, Scarlett Syndrome, Defending Boundaries - and I am not finding it.

Tuesday, July 11, 2017

And - I'm free!!

The person kept badgering me today, asking me what I wanted. Glanced at them, picked up my phone, called the principal and quit(this extra position). Yep, that was exactly what I wanted.